i'm really don't know what to do ..should i go back n face the prob or just stay here n pretend dt there's nothing to worry about ?.there r 2 choice ...but i must think it fast be4 i regret ...
if i go back ...
+ve thought : i'll always be by my parents side ...helps mom ,,, n dad too ...try to ease them ..
-ve thought : i'll always faced the faces ...arggghhh ...my hurt will hurt so much ..then ,,i'll hate them more than ever ..
hah ???..i don't want to bcme the one who are full of spite !!...i want to change myself to be the better one ...myb yes ,,i'm not perfect !!!...no one too ...but i really try hard this year to bcme a good person ...why would i cme back to my past ???..but evrytym i thinking bout dt persons ,,my heart kept tell me that i hate them very much ...myb i ...urghhhh !!!!...why it must be like dz ?????
but ,,if i stay here i thought that i'm selfish ...i'm here ...happily with my sec family but what bout my parents especially my mom ...she'll be alone ...there's no one will help her ...myb they are ,,but not enough ...mom ,,i'm really sorry ...i love u so much ...but i should do the best decision 4 all of us ...
so ..dz is it .. i should stay here day 4 a couple more days ...i thought that evrybdy will hurt when i'm around ...so ,,i should stay far from u ...but ,,when u cme here i;ll follow u back ...juz dz week ..i want to find the peace 1st ...ok then ,,i want go outing for a moment ...
byeee.........
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